If there’s one thing that raises its ugly head from time to time, and threatens to undermine all freelancers, it’s imposter syndrome. I don’t know a single freelancer who hasn’t been hit with it at some point.
It starts off as a niggle … ‘oh, I do that differently to Freelancers R Us.’
Then, despite the shoulder shrug and the acceptance that we all do things in a different way, the little niggle turns into a monster that runs off to hide in the corner.
Within a few days the little monster wants feeding again … ‘Oh, hell, am I doing this right?’ (Yum, he likes that … back to the corner a little fatter and more satisfied).
By the end of the week he’s sitting by your side as you work, he’s stroking your shoulder and feeding off your fear … ‘Oh, I’m rubbish, no-one will want to hire me ever again, I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m a fraud.’
It’s about time we all understood the genesis of this particular type of monster, and learned how to crush him.
The Imposter Monster seems to prefer a solitary environment and he also seems to prefer women (are men naturally more confident?) although he will attack both genders and will creep into a busy office if it takes his fancy. If you work on your own, and have no-one to reassure you, there are steps you can take to avoid monster propagation.
Step 1.
Realise that this monster will attack the vulnerable.
Step 2.
If you feel the first niggle, take stock, understand the situation and realise that the monster is trying to feed. This may be enough to kill the monster dead – accept what it is and let it go.
Step 3.
If the monster does take hold understand this:
Step 4.
To keep the monster at bay realise your self-worth. It is not a dirty word.
Step 5.
Kill the monster. By believing in yourself, and understanding the nature of the beast, you may eventually kill it. If you do you are one of the lucky ones.
So … realise, take stock and understand the problem to keep the monster at bay, then kill it. Imposter syndrome can be a career killer, it’s about time this monster was vanquished.
(For the record, I haven’t killed my monster yet, it’s right beside me as I type this … I may feed it in a minute).
Love it! As you say, loads of us are sufferers of Imposter Syndrome. I wish I could take it out the back door and clobber it to death with a shovel. Can I make my Imposter Syndrome work in my favour? If I can’t club it completely to death, can I use it to ensure that I’m always giving of my best? Would still rather get rid of the damned thing altogether though 😀
You could give your monster a lovely silver chain and try to get it to work for you… but beware, it could still bite! 😉
I *so* relate to this; both my writing and my day job have me commonly feeling scared of being found out for being a fraud, rubbish at what I do, and no amount of good feedback or reviews really quells this for long.
I think everyone’s the same, but I’ve had my monster so long I think I might name him 🙂
Go for it. I named my parathyroid tumour, “Dexter,” for obvious reasons; it rather helped me cope with him until the surgery to remove him. I even managed to persuade the surgeon to take some photos.
That is classic! Hope Dexter is well and truly squished 🙂
Not just with freelance work.. This monster can strike when I’m writing something – essays, blogs.. I guess it takes training to become a monster-slayer!
One reason I watch Buffy in my time off … hints n tips 😉
Thanks for this!! I find this very useful as I batte against my own monster but maybe the idea of having a chair for the monster to sit while we’re writing, researching or whatever would be good. I’ve taken it from E. Gilbert. Let the monster sit and look while we do the work. He can stay but not direct or say what we are doing or not.
Totally… mine sits by my shoulder, just remember never to feed it (a bit like Gremlins)
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So here’s another ‘positive’ to put in that jar. Your writing is thoughtful, well-written, and potentially very helpful. Stomp on that monster now. Thanks for your article.
Thanks Kathy 😊
I was just talking about this on the other blog entry. I believe it was the one about isolation as a freelancer.
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